a bit about our week(s)

We've had a lot going on lately and I really haven't blogged much because I keep trying to find a positive way to do it. I have now realized that maybe I need to stop trying to sugar coat it and put it out there. Feel free to stop reading when you have had enough!
-Riley's name had been flagged at the school for not being old enough to be in 1st grade. After some looking into, it is apparently against the law to have her be in 1st grade and not be 6 yet. They put her in half day kindergarten, which is quite different than all day 1st grade. We kept hearing how much they were gonna work to get it fixed and Ry where she needs to be. Well, that didn't happen and we have had to change schools so Ry can be in an all day program. They started Tuesday, and I just don't like it. I feel awful when I drop them off, we don't fit in there, and Ry is bringing home crap that she could do when she was 3. They switched her teacher last minute Tuesday morning, and I don't know her well yet, but I don't like her. I hope to meet with the principal on Monday to get things worked out. I just hate to have to keep switching my kids around. I have a new jaded perspective on the public school system. Luke of course, is a teacher's pet and he is doing well, and I do like his teacher.
- I have just been so bummed about the whole school thing, it makes me bummed that we just don't have a house in an area I want to live in and the kids wouldn't have to be switched around to get a good education. I feel bad that we have come in and overtaken my in laws home. I hate that we only have one income that took a pay cut and no pay raise, and that is costs so dang much to feed and clothe a family of 6. I make myself feel like crap about it all, and then I see the real homeless guy on the corner, and think, gosh I am blessed. But I then go right back to feeling bad for myself.
-I just feel like there is too much to do and not enough time to do it in. My anxiety level has gone through the roof which has made my thyroid out of whack, making my hair and nails a mess again and putting 6 pounds on my body. This may not seem like a lot, but on me it is, and my whole self image right now is crap. I feel huge and uncomfortable. I can't work out the way I am used to because I have too many kids and not enough hours in the day, and not enough sleep. You'd think training for a marathon would be enough for my body, but evidently not.
-I am thankful for Darren being the good husband he is and how hard he works outside and inside the home.
My Grandma had a 2nd stroke on Saturday, Darren and a friend went to the hospital to give her a blessing. She hadn't been able to speak clearly until afterwards, she said "thank you" clear as day they said. I am so proud to have a husband that is faithful to his priesthood powers
-We got to have my niece Hayden over for a few hours last night. She is so dang cute and the kids just love her. It is sad to see Coco getting so big. He just kept trying to hug and kiss her. Luke is such a Mecham with his love of babies. Here he is pretending to be asleep with her. I love that he is so sensitive.

-Cole is becoming so independant. He likes to feed himself, shut doors by himself and just wants to be one of the big kids. I love watching him do these things and I am excited to have bigger kids, but at the same time it makes me sad to think that when he is bigger we won't have another baby to laugh at and teach to do silly things. Which just reminds me that I am just getting older. The creaks in my body as I get up in the morning and go downstairs remind me of this too. Maybe I am having a mid-life crisis? Is it too early for that?

- Some friends and myself are putting on a baby shower for our friend Michelle tonight. Here is one of the goodies I made for the big party.

Pretty easy to make, not easy to find a way to store them up right so the chocolate can dry. I am so excited to see how everything turns out for the shower. I will post pics tomorrow of it.

-I was taken out of Riley's primary class and Darren and I were both called to be in the 7 year old class. It is a little trying when you have a 15 month old that won't sit still and it's nap time. So one of us has to walk the halls with him which takes away one teacher from 11 kids.
I can't wait for nursery!
-We have the primary program practice tomorrow and another baby shower to attend, along with a run I need to get in. I wish D didn't work on Saturday's so I didn't need to stress over getting a sitter practically all day so we can get everything done.
-I can't wait for the program on Sunday. It is one of my favorite Sundays all year. Luke and Ry have their parts down and memorized. If anyone would like to come and see it, you are welcome to come! (It's at 1pm)

- I was able to attend the temple last week by myself. I just needed to be there. It was so nice and I am so grateful that we have a temple so near that I can just jump in my car and be there in a few minutes. I have never gone by myself, and it was actually quite nice.
-I hope nobody gets the wrong idea out of this post. I just need to be real. I am very thankful for all I have, it's just hard to only feel thankful. I'm not always the put together person you see on the outside. I don't always get ready for the day and get all my chores done and dinner ready.